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Justin Gonzales
Artist | Hobbyist | Photography
United States
From the top to the bottom
I bleed it all away,
Empty strokes on a dead canvas
Define my life in many ways.
The worlds a stage and I got sacked in act two.
I'm no Oedipus or hamlet
just a sad boy told to piss on que.
No one every told me how sad the world really is
I see it bleeding, dying more every day.
Hate breeds hate,
and all we do is hurt.
We move forward and call it progress,
when we really move two steps back
Trade kindness for possession.
Empty lives for empty lies.
We call it society and it entraps you.
  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: Cementary Drive - My Chemical Romance
  • Reading: Good Omen: The Nice and Accurate Prophecies of...
I am alone.
I reach up yet I fall.
When does this darkness end,
when does life begin.
How dark must it be,
how much pain must I see.
When must the struggle end,
In my tale of woe.
I have no anchor in the storm.
No home to call my own.
I'm a soldier without a cause.
A pilgrim with no god.
A lover without a heart.
And a king without his throne.
  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: Cementary Drive - My Chemical Romance
  • Reading: Good Omen: The Nice and Accurate Prophecies of...
Just something I felt like writing i'm still working on it.

He sees the blank opaque faces all around 
He endures their feelings that are judgement bound
Hallow words followed by cold staring eyes matched with a hushed quiet sound
to them he's just another weird kid with a nicotine addiction
they don't know the struggle at home to maintain under all the friction,
with a dad that never loved him and siblings who never missed him. 
He stopped caring and threw away his prescription
A lonely walk followed by lonely thoughts
Trying to fit in, but he's a puzzle piece missing
Its silence the words from his mouth are kissing.
Pride soon to die, each day lives a lie
In a boy who isn't allowed to cry.
  • Mood: Neglect

I wish it would all end

I wish you would go away

and leave me alone

you say i'm running away from my problems

but you are wrong

I am running away from you

from your hurt and pain

from your torture and abuse

every kiss was a lie

another piece of me becoming yours

and i finally say enough

I am sick and tired of becoming what you want me to be

I want to be me

I don't want to change for you

I don't want to be your damned "Adonis"

because it isn't worth it

the pain and misery kills me

every time I see your face tears drip down my face

I'm tired of your broken promises

you lied and you will get what you deserve in time.

  • Mood: Horror

My inside feels.

Journal Entry: Mon Mar 3, 2014, 12:51 PM

Don't you ever want it to end
To stop having to pretend
To stop the pain you feel within
To stop all tears that have been
To rip right outta your skin
To show all the darkness that dwells within
To show them who you really are
To show them all of the emotional scars
To let them hear the silent cries for help
To stop feeling like a worthless whelp
To solve your problems in a single second 
And let your soul fly free
And cease to be
Never more the person you used to be.

  • Mood: Horror


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Switchum Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2014
Thanks for the fave on my Poe bobble head!
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elbichopt Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2014
Thank you for the :+fav:! :dummy:
SUDOR Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2014
Merci, thank you very much for the watch !
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Thanks for the fav! :)
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Lhizna Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2014  Student
Thanks for the fave on my set design! :)
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