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Justin Gonzales
Artist | Hobbyist | Photography
United States
The Sleep begins
It's my only friend
The escape from the day,
and the light.
I slip and pray I don't wake up again
I measure the distance between death and Life
Then I go,
I go into the nothingness.
The scars and burns, they fade away.
The hate and the ignorance are behind me now.
Slave to the nightmares ,
Or the depths of nothingness,
But I'm tortured when alive.
Escape from the world,
Escape from all ,
This is the destiny I seek.
In life I see me,
I see the person I long to be,
I know that he'll never be me.
And so I slip again,
Sleep is my only friend.
Even my friend scares me.
In the end we are all the same,
Slaves to the master, misery.
So I slip into my final dream.
  • Listening to: Hallow Be Thy Name - Iron Maden
I was almost killed today
In those few seconds between life and death. 
I saw nothing 
then I saw everything.
The world stopped 
and the universe moved around me.
it flashed
everything stopped.
  • Listening to: Float on-modest mouse.
All I've ever wanted
Was some where to fit in
Somewhere I was normal
Some where 
Somewhere I was wanted
A place where I'm not fucked up
Somewhere could escape the erratus
I've always longed to just belong
I want to fit
I want to blend in
I want to feel welcomed
Some where for me to be me
And to be the person I want to be.

  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: If it means a lot to you- ADTR
The truth is
I've given up
Little by little
I used to give all
I was clingy and caring 
After each time
I lost my self 
The world blurred
My words broken and slurred
I became cold and despairing 
I grew hate my self
I grew to hate them 
I grew to hate the world
I grew dead inside 
That's the truth
I can't be happy
I can't live
I can't do anything 
I'm not worth it.
I'm not the happy child I've always longed to be.
Where did I go wrong?
What did I do?
Where are you?
Why don't you save me?
Why do you sit idly by?
Why watch me spiral?
You don't get it!
You don't care!
How fucking high is it on your pedestal there? 
Are you pleased?
Are you entertained?
I can't control myself.
I'm lost in the darkness,
Building in rage.
You use me as a tool,
And I have myself to blame
Daddy never loved me 
Mom wasn't there 
My siblings hate me
I'm a bastard who lies
My soul it slowly dies
My upbringing my downfall
This is me
This is under the mask
The truth I wield 
Is the pain I bear.
  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: Papercut - Linkin Park
I spiral 
I see it and I can't breathe
Life has left me
I feel empty
And full at the sane time
A thousand pounds on my chest
And my soul leaves
Feeble and weak 
She has some one else
I see them
I have no lost my feelings for her
She's lost the ones for me 
I can't fix my self
I'm broken 
Mind shattered
Will gone
I tremble
I'm a child
The pain causes constant sorrow
Any reasons gone
Blinded by the loss of love
The beginning of one 
Creates the end of another 
  • Mood: Sorrow
  • Listening to: Painkiller - Three Days Grace
  • Reading: The face book status

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BuraddiRi Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you for the "Watch~"
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ThisPendentWorld Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2014  Student General Artist
Thanks for favorite :)
MasdaXploda Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:
ice-cream-skies Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the faves!
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Switchum Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2014
Thanks for the fave on my Poe bobble head!
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